I am truly blessed, and I don’t know if I spend enough time reflecting on that and taking it in. It is so easy to get bogged down by frustration and the general irritation that comes with dealing with life’s daily hassles. Remind me to tell you sometime about that time my jeans didn’t fit quite right and it totally ruined my day. Oh wait—that kind of crap happens all the time.
The good news is that when I actually allow myself some space to look at the big stuff and brush the small stuff aside, there are some cool things happening. Work is good, health is good, and I’ve reconnected with some of the activities I love (snowboarding, dancing, music, etc.). That’s all wonderful, and I’m thankful for all of it, especially the physical activities, since there was a time when I wasn’t sure I’d be able to do any of it again.
I don’t really make New Year’s resolutions per se, but I do like to set goals for the coming year. That’s always been a fun exercise, especially when I look back on them and find out that I’ve either completely changed my mind or that I’ve accomplished what I set out to do. It’s generally a bit of a mix. So this year, of course I have some goals. Most of them are work-related. I’ll write them down and hopefully have a successful year.
That’s not the big story, though. The big story in my life right now is the people who are in it.
I am notoriously naïve when it comes to people and first impressions. I am quick to dismiss red flags and equally quick to give benefit of the doubt or explain something away. I am deeply flawed, and I understand that everyone else is too, so I try not to be a jerk. Unfortunately, my benefit-of-the-doubt giving often leads me directly into chaos. I have found myself right in the eye of one shit-tornado too many, and I’ve become much more discerning about who I choose to spend time with.
I’ve met a few new(ish) people recently who have the potential to be wonderful mentors and influences. I’ve also reevaluated some old relationships and allowed a select few people back into my life. Most surprisingly to me, I’ve taken stock of the people who have stayed. People who have been by my side for multiple years. In the past, I had a difficult time maintaining friendships across life phases. High school friends stayed in high school. Same with college friends. Same with many of my co-worker friends after any or all of us changed jobs.
Either I’m growing up and learning to be a better friend, or I’ve actually cracked the code for finding People Who Matter, because there are many more on the “people who have stayed” list than ever before. Some of them have been around for five or six years now. It’s crazy to me, but I’m so happy and so lucky.
So, to the people of 2015, I salute you:
Chris and Chris—You’re really the only ones left from my distant past, and you understand things about me that are impossible to explain. Here’s to hopefully many more years of bonding over music, travel, and relentless passion for life.
Jaime—The water has been particularly rough under our bridge, but the past year has shown me how strong the bridge actually is. I have nothing but love. You help me to be fearless.
Robb and Laura—I used to think of both of you as rocks, but as the years go by, I realize that you’re more like concrete posts that go deep into the Earth. You guys saved my life once upon a time, and I hope that someday I can come remotely close to returning the favor.
Luke—You save my life every single day. Thank you for loving me even when you hate me, and thank you for making so much of my current success possible. Love doesn’t even quite cover it.
Rodney (and the supporting cast of Dawn and Fallon)—I can’t imagine someone I’d rather hang out with every day. We are living the dream, and it’s only just begun. Pruitt ain’t got nothin’ on us.
Grant—You’re new, but special. You’re helping me fix something that I thought was permanently broken. If you are able to turn music into a light in my soul instead of the gaping wound it had become, I’ll be forever grateful—even if your arc in my life is short.
I know this post is all just a bunch of sappy-sauce, but I believe strongly that there is not enough love in this world. If you feel it, you should say it.
So, go spread some goodness. And have an incredible journey across the 2014 finish line.